Eating disorders -they're not all about food!

A misconception about eating disorders is that they are just about food and people with an ED  (eating disorder) hate food. This is definitely not true, it is far deeper than that! People with an ED are actually obsessed with food and when you deprive yourself of food and don't eat when you're hungry, it's all you can think about because of a chemical called ghrelin that is the hunger hormone gets released more when you don't eat  much. However EDs are much more than food, it's about taking control of something because your life is out of control. You become terrified of everything, an ED can take over every aspect of your life.  You lose touch with friends, family and become so scared... The anxiety doesn't stop when you're weight restored and this is something people fail to understand! People think just because you are in recovery and are eating you are cured but this is not true, especially after being discharged from hospital, it is just the beginning of the journey.The recovery journey takes a long time and is very hard and complicated. It's being so scared to look in a mirror but not being able to resist looking at it to check, and no it is not vanity, it is a mental illness. There is a much deeper meaning to the reason for this, and even i don't quite understand because an ED is not logical. But there are so many emotions that come with this illness, disgust,guilt,shame,fear,sadness and much more. And the feeling that you don't deserve the help which makes it so much harder to deal with.

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Ela x

Bullying , it is NOT a joke!

Bullying can come in many forms such as emotional ,physical and cyber  bullying. The definition of bullying is to : 'use superior strength or influence to intimidate (someone), typically to force them to do something.'

Bullying happens in every school and i think it is absolutely disgusting! I have experienced bullying and i can say that it has definitely affected my life, it made my self esteem so low, i had no confidence at all and made me have very destructive behaviours. I was depressed and anxious all of the time and it contributed to my eating disorder, although its not the full cause. I will never ever forget the words that people have said to me. People have told me to kill myself and i seriously don't understand why you would say that,  it is so low.

A study in Britain found that at least half of suicides among young people are related to bullying! This is absolutely shocking! Nobody deserves to be bullied, no matter what they've done - and most of the time they have done absolutely nothing wrong! Bullies often use the excuse that it is 'just a joke' but do you really think tormenting someone is a joke? It can lead to mental illness, do you realise how serious that is? What will it take to stop bullying? someone that you have bullied attempting suicide?! That is absolutely sick. 

Bullies often have their own insecurities but this is no excuse, just because you feel bad about yourself you shouldn't try to make others feel as bad as you do. It is NEVER ok to bully someone. Please make sure that you tell someone if you are getting bullied because it needs to be stopped before it gets out of hand. 

Ela x